Pride and Offences
February 21st, 2010Shalom, my dearest brothers and sisters in Y’Shua. It has been a long time since my last entry and for that I apologize. Actually, there is much I must repent of and ask forgiveness for in this entry. I pray you will extend mercy, grace, and forgiveness as you read on.
James 5:16: If you have sinned, you should tell each other what you have done. Then you can pray for one another and be healed. The prayer of an innocent person is powerful, and it can help a lot. (CEV)
First, I ask you, dear brothers and sisters in Y’Shua to forgive me the sin of pride. You see, I have a wonderful ministry partner. We work and minister well together; however, like many partners, sometimes we take allowances with each other that may at times hurt the other person.
Bear with me for a moment, please, as I try to explain how it is I who wounded my ministry partner and not the other way around. When I started writing this blog, I took possession of it within my own heart and mind. Yes, I know that everything connected with this ministry is a joint effort and is shared between Elizabeth and me; but I held this blog as something personal. To be totally honest, I considered this blog to be mine alone. This is the first violation of the sin of pride on my part.
Now, I usually run everything by Elizabeth before posting my little missives. Mostly, I do this to have someone proofread what I have written and because I trust Elizabeth to tell me if what I am saying makes any sense. So, as usual, I asked Elizabeth to read through my last entry and post it to the blog if she thought it was acceptable.
Here comes the second violation of the sin of pride on my part. Elizabeth, believing she was making my posting easier to understand, made some formatting changes. Now, you and I know that the word says that when a brother or sister offends us, we are to go to the one who offended us (Matt 18:15). Well, I didn’t do that. I tried to convince myself that it didn’t matter. Obviously, by the lack of postings on my part, it did matter.
Now, this is how wonderful my ministry partner is. Sensing that I was upset about the blog, she had apologized to me quite some time ago — and – I told her I had forgiven her. And I have. It’s me that I haven’t been able to forgive.
Why? Because of pride. Because of a perceived sense of hurt. Because I’m out of alignment with HaShem. Because of my sense of ownership where none belongs. Because I have sinned. It’s that plain and simple. I have sinned and my own pride has kept me from fellowshipping with those I love and care about most. My pride and sin have kept me from a right relationship with HaShem and also from you, my dearest relatives in Y’Shua.
The commentary in Eaton’s Dictionary says this about pride:
Hence the heart must be changed, regenerated (Eze_36:26) before a man can willingly obey God.
The process of salvation begins in the heart by the believing reception of the testimony of God, while the rejection of that testimony hardens the heart (Psa_95:8). Hardness of heart evidences itself by light views of sin; partial acknowledgment and confession of it; pride and conceit; ingratitude; unconcern about the word and ordinances of God; inattention to divine providences; stifling convictions of conscience; shunning reproof; presumption, and general ignorance of divine things.
I believe HaShem will restore my desire to write and to communicate my thoughts via this blog now that I have confessed my sin openly. An additional lesson I have learned is that this blog is not mine. Hence, my fourth sin. Everything I do, everything I say, everything I write belongs to HaShem and therefore must bring glory to Him. I have taken this lesson to heart and will make every effort in the future to remember this lesson as I write in this blog.
So, I ask you again, will you please forgive me?
Be blessed my loved ones,
Lisa
February 21, 2010
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